I was sitting here thinking about everything that has happened the last two weeks. So much of it seems like the culmination of a lot of praying.
Most of the monies we need to go to Kenya have been raised. (many thanks to those praying and giving)
The list of what's next for me this summer and then into the fall is coming together.
Watching God protect and work in my immediate and extended family.
Seeing a practical way for this white middle aged suburban lady to be an encouragement in Urban Hispanic teenage Ft. Worth.
Real things, not hoped for in the future things, are happening. Some fun surprises too. Never would have thought to put it on the list surprises! (Safari in Kenya)
Letting go of my own agenda for my life has been, and I'm not being dramatic, agonizing at times. It reminds me of the feeling I got when I was nine or ten and someone talked me into jumping off the high dive at the community pool. Seemed like a great adventure on the way up the ladder. Then your at the edge... The agony sets in.
Retreating is agony. Letting go of the fear is agony... which hurts less seems to be the most important question at the time. Will I jump into the pool? What if I break my neck? How did that happen to the lady who travels around the country telling her story? (Joni) Or, look at them down there, just sure I wont jump and will instead climb back down the ladder. Wont hear the end of that for a while. Might have to give up coming to the pool. Agony.
The little girl decided to trust she wouldn't break her neck and jumped. A training day for the big girl now.
Okay God, I did say I wanted an adventure. One, two, three... jump!