So a couple of entries ago I admitted to having what I called Division Fatigue.
Wouldn't you know, since then God has been opening my eyes.
Shortly after that blog, it was time for me to go to church to pray. I meet up with a friend once a week to pray for whatever is on our hearts to pray about related to our church family. We usually read a passage of scripture before we begin. I flipped open my bible getting ready to flip through the pages of the Psalms. There was no need to flip...
Oh, bless the Lord, all you servants of the Lord,
you who serve as the night watchmen in the house of the Lord,
Lift your hands in holiness and bless the Lord.
May the Lord, who made heaven and earth, bless you from Jerusalem.
Right between the eyes... "You've lost perspective. Keep your eyes on me. Bless me. Pray and watch."
So of course we proceeded to have a wonderful time of prayer together.
God wasn't done yet. In addition to already discovering I had division fatigue I was confronted with the possibility of facing three significant losses. God has the ability to make all three of them go away. Turn them in the direction I want them to go... surprised to be faced with all of them at once.
please don't do that
why can't life be easy?
i don't like being vulnerable
So I decide to be in those thoughts long enough to act like an idiot. Only family got to witness the melt down.
A couple of days pass... then last night I was reminded again. The Lord knows. Not your plan necessarily but trusting God has never gone badly over the long haul yet. And, by the way Cheri, God is responsible for working all this stuff out. Your responsible to worship, learn to love God and trust, accept His will and follow. Please stop pouting when you don't get your own way. Your family will experience fewer melt downs. (Can I hear an Amen from Dave and Matt?!)
So grateful for my sisters in the Lord who were a part of helping me through this week. It really does take a village to grow me up!